Oblivion

I’ll always be right here
High off frequency
Low, sad, depression
It’s been my fault
Couldn’t be better
Hold me in
Don’t spit me out yet
I tried to stay afloat
But i wear forgetfulness so well
Can’t remember who i have been
Little steps
Cold enough to let the cracks clench to my ankles
The silence and crumbs are the only thing i need to survive
Almost gone
Been failing
So self-centered
That even when i say “i love you”
It is marinated with conditions
Like,
Love me enough
Tell me the truth
Only if it soothes my ego
Break my back
Understand my humour
Even if it disapproves
I’ll feed you fresh poison
New deeds, same Lilith
Sharpen your knife
A sacrifice
Our bed, my alter
Amen

Paulyn