Random (II)

S B

I thought today will turn out differently
I wore your sweat pants,
Which holds unto my waistline, clinging on to every curve of my ivory tower
I thought today i will miss you less
Or drink you down.
But the song on the radio, reminded me of how dramatic our love had been
Mostly problematic.
Today i clearly miss what i thought we could have been
The uneasiness i feel in my chest, which i know isn’t love but my heart breaking echoes loud.
Today i am unsure of something i know so well.
I miss you more on those days
That i know you don’t deserve me
The days i remind myself of my self worth
Are the same ones i can hear the sad mobs i make when i cry
I know better and i’m deserving of better
But between love and choice
You took that away from me
So cloude…

Paulyn