In Experience

I was the expected saint
I’ve held strongly to Holy Laws of ancient men
I lost myself observing all these
I tell you sincerely, I thought it was the only way of peace
Once, I obeyed nine commands but one
Twice beaten, once shy for disobeying
I bought forcefully the chains of freedom
I love hating what I practiced
I’ve been scared to wear the regalia of change
I’ve seen Prophets and Jesus killed for that in the past
I’m not ready to die
I learned to survive by following this path
I’ve heard enough but never satisfied
I’ve had some wings but I chose not to fly
I once flapped
And only one time, it was broken
I have let go of the chance to escape
I witnessed all in this stand
I will testify soon when we get to the end
I have stories that I will tell only after death
I found nothing but lost everything

Tochi