Why am i here?

When it comes to questioning why I’m here, i am fully convinced i shouldn’t be here. And in the quest to find meaning to why i am here, there is a deep hole of emptiness that fills my soul and i do carry it so well, but on some days no amount of make up or fake smiling can cover it up.

But today i question if maybe my being drained is solely off being reincarnated a million times over and over again.
Silence is so loud when you can hear your thoughts clearly, especially when your thoughts are a complete horror

Paulyn