illumine

Today is a little harder than most
Confusion has me covered in mist
Wondering how love never got to be enough
Because i thought that if i lay my life for you
Like Christ did on the cross, then maybe
You’ll know love as it was meant to be
But like an alter and a sacrifice
I am just that
I hear the echoes and loud cries
Same ones i put together every night under my pillow
I play the clueless girl
Just so i am not too much
I lowered my tone so I’m not controlling
I put down my expectations, just so I’m not demanding
Unable to control my wrath and anger, i became silent
Cleaning and burning sage
The universe did not listen to save me
I would bury pain that could destroy us all
Caged in my mind
You were right
I was too little for the rage i carried

Paulyn